Well, here I sit on Valentines Day looking at old post and remembering, remembering things that I thought I did not remember or feel.
The first 33 days at Children's was a bit of a whirlwind but reflecting back on the blog and videos this evening has brought back a lot of dark days. Seeing pictures of Elizabeth, ones we have shared with you and ones we have not, has been a bit sobering. I too can go through a day and think she is ok and then one moment back in time reminds me of the battle that still lies ahead.
One thing I can say for sure is that I have grown immensely in my faith. I look at the pictures and feel the despair that I felt four months ago, even though I had faith. Seemingly so to me, one of little faith. It is something that I can not even begin to describe or make you feel....I guess like what Elizabeth must feel like sometimes when she thinks of her mortality. No one can understand unless you have been there, we try because we love and care for each other but still can't get it.
I watch Elizabeth, Randy, Catherine, and James go through their emotions, each one different from the other, but non less or more and wonder how they cope; just like you probably wonder how I/we cope. I do know this more today than I ever have and I understand it too; it is only by the grace of God that I/we get through this. It is because of the strength we receive from him through your prayers that we can and will survive this journey. We will be stronger and will not be lead by our fears. God did not promise to shelter us from lifes difficuties but He does promise to be with us every step of the way.
As we get ready to head into the next phase we continue to ask for your prayers for Elizabeth and our family. God knows what is ahead for us and he is already prepared the way by bringing all of you into our lives. I thank you for you friendship, love, and support, of our family.
May God show you the love he has for you and continue to bless each and everyone of you.